coming back

Long time didnt write my blog already. I tried to write something on it many times, but at the end stopped without writing any words. hmm.. Want to tell what kind of stories of mine now?? Feeling??

What is my future? Work and get rich but loner forever or marry a guy and work as a housewife? I cant see my future, but i have a good time to imagine it, with the guy i love and a small kid name momo with me. Haha.. i know tat is what we call berangan-angan. LOL.. i do feel it will happen one day and hope it will really happen in the next 10 years, maybe 15 years.

If i fail to have that kind of life, means i ll be a loner with no people wants, maybe i ll jobless and poor also, so so so awesome life with freedom and nothing else. I dun like people control me doing this doing that but actually i hate alone. I wants attention, people feel im cool and quiet but i just duno what to tell. Why people cannot just say something first and not waiting me to start a conversation. haihhh.. maybe its call life. I surrender to u life.

I cannot deny the exist of fate, but i want to decide my own what i want to be. Wish me good luck.

在这四个月里，我的心情可以说是很复杂。让我领悟了在过去十八年来从来没有想过的事情。

人的生离死别是什么？当你处于激情时被逼分开，还是当某个人永远离开你？知道你在很远很远的地方，但是却感觉到你仿佛就在我身边。知道你不可能出现，但是偏偏你就到了。世事难料，什么是永远？

我说了很多很多的谎言，大部分都是在骗自己。假装的乐观，清楚一切都是不可能的。如果一切可以重来，我希望我们从来没有遇见。对不起。。我没有勇气说出所有。

Busy Busy Busy

I forget what was my last time writing blog.. err.... 1 month ago?? haha... at least i didnt abandon it.. i'm busy now by the way but just too much thing to do, i don't know want to start from where.. So pass here by to write something..

Exam will be coming soon, all the C1 lizard gang will be seperated forever maybe, or even next time when we met we cnt so close like now. Last year 10-5-2010, we came to this hell and suck place. That time I curse this place until I syiok. Now march 2011, matrik life going to end this april, and i feel sad because i'm going to lost all the friends that i closed to here. Expecially Mee Teng, we are different course and we are hard to be in the same state also when we enter u. Wan Qi, Guat Ting and Win Inn i may meet them in Penang or Kedah, still gt chance to meet but just as i say just now, we wnt be as close as now. They may have their own friends and me too. This situation remember me something, as in graduation ceremony in Form 5, I never know the feeling of seperation because i know, i still can see my friends even we cannot meet each other in school. But nowthe situation is different, we can't meet each other again because we are not from the same course, state, and many many other. Wat can i do to keep connect with them is only FB and FB. Just....... 天下无不散之筵席, memory are not easy to erase or delete, I will definately miss life here. This place give me the feeling of hate, love, miss, sad, angry, and happy.

Is it that when someone busy will write more, i should be writing my essay now, not writing blog. Erm, time to leave. Bye bye..

Short Holiday

Matric have a very short holiday.. This year i can only stay at home for 4 days only, and the last day will spend in bus. == sien loh when i think of the journey back to kns (kmns). LOL!!!!

how much will i gt this year?? sure the least in these 19 years.. haha.. but i dun mind how many i'll gt d lah.. angpau is just a symbol..

kmns dun have any cny feel.. but my classmate and roomate and even kuliahmate they all want to get mandarin oranges and angpau from me.. i really speechless.... == i havent marry yet, how can give angpau wor?? it is more ridiculous when some ppl ask me to get from my mum then give them, some ask me to marry now.. -- stupid loh these ideas..... haha.. but oranges i will gv lah.. i oso cnt finish these oranges in home..

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mid sem break was over and i'm waiting for the coming cny holiday.. haha.. although i know i'll be very busy in that holiday but i really hope that i can enjoy the busy life and forget about something, something i do not want to admit, something that i know it is wrong. ==

I like this song recently: (is a translation from a korea song)

究竟还得独自注视着你多久
这像风一般的爱情
这像是谎言的爱情
还得持续多久 你才能爱我
Oh…
只要稍稍走近你
只要靠近你一步
就会后退两步的你
这样的爱着你的我
现在就在你身旁
那个男人哭泣着

I'm addicted to secret garden ost d.. == expecially this song, seem like it is describing someone i know. and i feel that girl in the song know that that guy loves her. == hehe.. common sense..

Account students nid to sell thing this sem. unfortunately, i have 3 account roommate, they keep on asking me to buy their thing. haihh... y i so pity to have 3 account roommate together?? and they are not so creative, all is choc, cookies, brownie, cupcake and nothing else. u all didnt boring i oso boring lah.. ==

That's all, no mood to write anymore..

A Funny Kacau Message....

two days ago, i received messages from unknown person. Content like that:

U: haha..... i love u.

(i didnt reply this message) a moment later,

U: vern, seriously, do you accept me?

(I was shocked because this person knows my name and i have no idea about him/her, then i reply)

M: 你是谁？我可以知道你是谁吗？

U: 暗恋你的人，我们每天见面，但只是擦肩而过。

M: 哇，原来我的行情酱好，可以知道你贵姓吗？

U: 蛤？我是不是太迟了？我还有机会吗？

(Please lah, i duno who are u loh, idiot. i didn't replay this message oso.) few minutes later.

U: Vern...

M: I'm so stupid to reply ur message, u no nid exam i oso nid to exam lah.. dun play lah.

U: sorry i don't know u exam..

Haha.. u don't know i exam?? then how u c me everyday?? == stupid liar....

I oso dnt to to dig this person out. dun want to call oso. waste my money and time only. haha.. wait and c this person will message me again or not.. if too serious hor, i wnt hesitate to post the number on fb.. haha... c who die first....

Snowing in Pavillion

The day that I hoping for had been over, Christmas, the last holiday in this half sem. LOL!! I have shop 4 shopping complexes... Pavillion, Berjaya Times Square, Sungai Wang and Mid Valley!!! Haha... luckily i trained to walk long before, if not, i dun think i still can walk today... hahahaha...

Pavillion: The snowing is AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The white white snow falls from the roof and it is AMAZING!!!!!! The bubble like snow make me feel like in winter!!! haha.......

Although the snowing is just half an hour, i really enjoy it. Thank pavillion give me such a wonderful Christmas eve....

The second day was the day i spend the most money.. Shopping in times square and sungai wang kills me... i bought 2 skirt, 2 t-shirt, shoes, masks, and others lah, make me bleed for RM350... AIZZZZ........... i tried duno how many shirts and skirts..... but trying without buying is my biggest satisfaction...

Last day in KL- Mid valley!!!! Mid valley should be a good mall to shop, but because of we lack of time, we only shop a while only... aiya, should go there earlier!!! the bear bear there is awesomely big!!! There is a bear has at least have one storey tall!!!! but i didnt take that bear's photo.. sigh..... this is the rest big big bear...