Emo not suit me!!!!

Tomorrow is my birthday. If it is last last year, i'll be very happy to receive wishes from all my friends and family. But since last year, I dun have such a desire to celebrate my birthday already. Maybe last year my birthday is during spm. This year is falls on Sunday, but our stupid kns KMNS dun allow us to go out this weekend. That means i have to celebrate my birthday alone in jungle. I'm not so happy with that, I have persuaded myself to cheer but my mood haven't come back. Emo keeps disturb me. I dun want to be an emo person. I'm an optimist and i dun really feel good today.

Yesterday, i told someone that emo not suit me. It's true because once i become emo, i'll feel very tortured and I feel like i can't breathe. I hate that side of me. That's why i choose to forget all the problems and avoid to face the problems. This is not me. I'm not like that. I must be something wrong already. But what is it?? I don't want to show this side to my friends. I smile in front of them but only i know that is not a sincere smile. It is fake!!!

Today, I did a stupid act. I went to the olahraga training and i thought that it would be useful for me to grab a pedal in mini kakom. But those crazy and stupid and hiao po sss keep on ki hiao there. The problem is we have to do together with them. I felt ashame with their and my act.. training training lah.. Why make it like dancing?? Is it really useful for us to get petal in mini kakom.. Please lah, dun act stupid anymore lah.. Luckily not many chinese saw that, if not I really have to dig a hole and hide inside... I felt like i want to explode already lah.. no mood to do my homework leh.... I know I must do it very fast because i run out of time....

KMNS dun have a nice spot to suicide, if not, many students will die here... cuz it is torturing and hectic... and the most important is the attitude ppl really beh tahan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!